Anyone ever created a sentence in their mind only to hear it come out totally jumbled? For some reason, that very scenario has been happening to me a lot lately. Just yesterday, I told a story from my childhood, only to get the phrase, “Bump on a log” jumbled to “Stump on a log.” It sounds like an easy mistake that anyone could make, but my problem arises when I never catch my mistake in time. In fact, this genius decides to make the mistake over and over again. Thankfully, there is always someone who graciously corrects me after the sermon.
Like I said, this has been happening to me quite a lot lately. Honestly, I am hoping my new found word-jumble has to do with the stress of opening the new building or the conversation I had that morning about grinding a stump from someone’s front yard. However, if I am truly honest, down deep inside I am beginning to realize my mind is getting more and more crowded with life, conversations, deadlines, projects, responsibilities, and words. Oh, the words, so many words!
At the end of an exhausting day, there are times all I want to do is pour myself into a comfortable chair, sit quietly, and just be. No distraction. No deadlines. No lists. No words. Just me and a divine presence. The Psalmist wrote, “Be still, and know that I am God!” (46:10). The Hebrew word for “be still” is raphah, meaning “to become helpless.” Therein lies the struggle. I have such hard time becoming helpless. If only I could pour myself into God’s arms where he awaits to hold me, offering his strength, his stillness, and his peace. Thankfully, even though that day is not today I know that day is coming.
My words may be jumbled these days, my thoughts may be bouncing off one another in my mind, my heart may be racing while I run life’s course, but I know there is a day soon coming when I will pour myself into the presence of God. There, he will hold me, empower me, and prepare me for another stage. Even though my words may get more jumbled with time, I know I serve a God whose Word is always perfect even when my words gets jumbled. Even when I don’t make sense, God always does!